I have been pushing myself to apologise to him today. But I just can't. This is the first time which I have this feeling. I really don't see what I have done wrong. If can, I just want to ignore him for a few days, to show him that I am angry and I have reached my limit. Honestly, I am really not happy with him googling other girl's blog, what made him so curious about her? He explained to me that he was just being random, but, does he feel wrong when he is doing that? Especially he is the one who always claim to be not caring what other people's life. Is he doing that to see whether he is good enough to get this kind of girl?
I don't know, the act of googling some random girl's blog is not acceptable to me at all. Especially after seeing him acting so uninterested towards pretty girls. I am very disgusted by it. And after all the hardwork that I have done, told him what I want, trying to talk to him about everything, he just can't open up his heart to me.
and when I talk to him about this issue, after me writing a very long message to him. He just explained that he was just being random, and told me that he is very tired and he wanted to sleep. and leave me hanging there. What did he want me to do? To blame myself? To apologise to him again? Sorry, this time, his tactic does not work, because, I am really angry.
And I remember reading his blog, he said that he don't like the feeling of taking into account of other people's feeling, he indicated that relationship is a burden to him, but why is he sticking to me? Because of he loves me? But why is he keep making mistakes?!
Probably, he is not ready yet. And the worst is, I am not able to take any unstable guy. The relationship is a mistake.
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hey dear, nicky here. i;ve read it and wat i should say it. if u can't take it, just let go. u should know my answer right. i dun wan to be a mean person and i dun wan to say anything bad bout a certain party.just as a general thingy,when u r not happy in a relationship, just move on. find one that u r happy with or take a break.
dun make yourself so angry. even if u r angry, u think he care? maybe he care but if u shout yourself out from him, u think he knows tat u r angry. by end if the day, its only u tat suffer. y take tat risk of u being unhappy n shut yourself up while he is still enjoying life?
come on gal. life goes on. talk things out. if he dun wan to, it;s fine. move on..
anyway, i just hope tat u can live a happy life. take care
hope to hear from you soon.
love
nicky
error that need to fix:
"wat i should say IS"
"maybe he care but if you SHUT yourself out"
nicky
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