I need a space to vent out my frustrations in this relationship

Dear David,

these are all your mistakes, what I did is just want to show my concern, and the thing is, you googling other girl's blog, a random girl's blog, I did not even get angry about it! Even though I am given all the rights in the world as a girlfriend to get angry at you, to shout at you!
And Mr. Principle! You have been pretending that you are not curious about her at all (she is the prettiest girl in class)! Pretend that you don't even remember her name! If I act as if I don't know anything, and ask for your opinion about guys googling other girl's facebook, you would say: "oh, that is so sick! A guy who has a girlfriend should never do that!" Am I right? You are just so fake! I really don't know how can you ask me to trust you while you yourself is not trustworthy at all! Do you even feel ashamed when you blame me for not trusting you?! These were all happened during the d saga! You assured me and even scolded me for not trusting you, made me feel that as if I am someone with some mental problems who always suspect my boyfriend! See what you did to me in the end! All the lies you told me slapped my face within few second when I found out what happened, it hurted me so badly! I felt that I am just being played, being treated as a pros for an entire year! Compared to the physical slaps that I gave you, which you claimed to be so hurtful to you, the hurts that you brought to me are thousands times worse!
And I know, even until TODAY, yes, today, you are still very concern about her! You lied to me that you did all the searches of her name, her blog and her university are just all out of curiosity. Me, thinking of not to raise more issues which will burden you, have to take all these shits in! All those lousy excuses!
And yesterday, I have to push the issue of checking random's girl's blog aside, to tell you that what I want is just your honesty, not wanting you to hide things from me anymore! Don't want you to pretend to be a man who full of the shit principle, just check out girls with me! All these while I have been trying to tell you everything, just to make sure that you would do the same to me, but you just don't, you just like to pretend! Which really annoys me!
YOu claimed that you are tired to listen to all these issues, so do I. I am so tired with all your fucking lies! You always think that you are the victim, how about me? If was not because of the mistakes that you made, I will not even make a single noise! Do you realise that!
What I am feeling now is I am being held ransom! I am threatened not to make complaints about your faults! But at the same time, you keep making mistakes. And I cannot even raise my concern. These are all your mistakes, me, the victim, have to make sure that I tone down my voice when I talk to you about it, to make sure that you won't be triggered, to make sure that it won't tire you out! Do you think that it is fair for me? At the end of the day, you just like to make the whole situation as if I am the one at fault, is this the way you love me? And, because of me loving you so deeply, I have to keep persuading myself that you love me and you are just someone simple, apologise to you in the end, to make sure that you feel better and not breaking up with me. And the next day, you do more mistakes.
Mr. Principle, what I did is just to raise my concern! And I did not even blame you for checking her blog! Please appreciate my patience! Appreciate my love to you!
Please remember, honesty and trust work together! If without you being honest, how do you expect me to trust you!