*Hexangels*: August 2007

Monday, August 6, 2007

dilemma

Dear all,

i am in a deep trouble now, running out of money.
i ter-spoilt my brother's gf's laptop, he is accusing me for being clumsy and i will say that is not my fault, however, Nicky, can you imagine how a brother's face will look like at this time?
He scolds me almost everyday, asks for money from me.
That costs RM1500. He said he wants it once my salary is out this month.
My salary this month is really not enough to cover my expanses.
i thought of borrowing money from my friends,
ask for allowance from parents
however, my mom told me yesterday: " girl, do you think you can finish your study in Malaysia?"
i was frustrated, they promised to let me go UK next year, however, they are trying to go back on their words. My heart is broken.....totally broken in pieces.
I have to change school if i am not going to UK, the people in University of Reading will be very pissed off. I think, the people who will be happy of it are: My dad (he can spend more to other people instead of the daughter) Melvin ( you should know why)
However, my mum claimed that she is just asking for fun.
As a daughter, i got the hint.
I am very worry about it.
That's why, i never dare to ask for money from my mum.

However, they are my own business. I have to learn to deal with it.

There is one thing which will really affect you guys,

Can i not go to Singapore?
I am really sorry to say that.
I really hope to go but i was really haunted by my parents and brother.
Let me pay for the bus and hotel fees, k?
This is the only way that i can feel better.
OR
You all think that i should go?
There are two thought in my mind
i really hope to go
however,
everything happens recently really disturbs my mind,
i am trying to convince myself to be a good girl, save the money to do other thing.

Please.....please give me an answer.