did i do the right thing? thousand apologies to my dear angels...

hey guys..im keeping in touch with hakim even tho he left tpm d. this incident happen jus yesterday after posting this buletin. we were chatting n i told him i kinda miss him. dun get the wrong idea. but u guys know how guilty i felt rite. anyways hakim came 3 days ago, which is on mon. i know bout it from my frens but the thing is i reacted as if i dun care whether he is here anot. i felt really bad but at the same time i feel that if i let my true feelings out, which is to react really happy to know hakim is here, my frens will start thinking the wrong stuff. u know wat i mean rite. but the thing is, i really wanted to meet him to keep in touch. n i owe u guys an apology! i went to langkawi early this year before cny in january n i din tell u guys bout it. this is coz i tak sempat get u guys anything. the trip was ok. i got my tpm frens key chains, n that is oni becoz i ter-told them tat im going to langkawi. i got a few key chains n so i gave it to them coz i felt bad that i din get them anything when they already know that i went to langkawi. n it so happens tat my best fren in tpm went to beijing n get me something so i tot of giving her back something. n if i give her i have to give to the rest of the gang as well n so the key chains tat i bought in langkawi not enuff for u all. actually got remaining 3 so i cant give u all. so i decided to give one to hakim since i never treated him well enuf. when we were chatting i told hakim that i wanna meet him coz i owe him something. the key chain. he actually told me to keep it for myself for remembrance of our friendship, but i told him i want him to have it (coz i feel bad that i din give it to him when i gave the key chains to my other frens in tpm) as a small appreciation of our friendship. then later he msg me n say if i wanna give him a key chain, he wants a key chain with both our names on it. he told me he wants to get one for me with the word "hakim love kheryin" on it n he say he wants a key chain from me with the words "kher yin love hakim". he say the word "love" on the key chain represents our love for each other in our friendship. he say he love me as a fren also. i told him i will try n get it for him coz to me the word "love" is bout friends love n not the other bf gf love. am i right or am i wrong? tell me guys. did i make a mistake by telling him i will get the key chain for him? i told him that if i get u one with "kheryin love hakim", i will get it with the word "friendship forever" also. not jus with the word "love" coz i duwan his gf to misunderstand. he say his gf wun misunderstand wan. n im really sorry my dear angels! i really din mean to hide this langkawi trip from u guys wan. i wanted to tell u all long time ago but i scared u all will ask me for souvenirs n i will feel so bad to have to tell u guys that i tak sempat get the key chains for u all coz not enuff! i decided to make up this mistake by buying u all gifts when i go to US end of this year and the upcoming trip to thailand. for sure i will get something for u all in US but thailand trip i not sure if im going la. mum say must see situation first. scared too many bombings ar then cant go. if i really going thailand i will get u guys each a present k. thousand apologies bout the langkawi trip guys. n dun get the wrong idea that im telling u guys bout this lngkawi trip coz i need ur help in hakim's case. its not like tat. i plan to tell u guys before i leave US end of this year. its like an apology thing before i leave for the states. but i really need u guys to help me in this hakim thingy. do u guys agree tat i get him a key chain? if yes, help me think of a place to get it k. thanks. do leave a comment on this buletin gals. love ya tonnes! *hugs*